That! What Interesting!
This is a screen shot from months ago. I've been SO busy that I do not blog like I used to. Do you miss my posts or are you here reading this blog for my freebies and free tutorials? Do you really care about me? Sometimes I feel like people are just here in this world to take from me and do not really care about me. I can only give so much.
This comment to me really caught my eye.
When people tell you that you are "interesting" what does that really mean?
Is that a good thing?
Is that an odd thing?
Is that a weird thing?
Something that is interesting "holds your attention." That hold does not necessarily mean that it holds your attention because you are doing great and wonderful things.
Sometimes people say "That's interesting" because they are being kind and do not really want to tell you that you are actually kind of weird. Even I have said this phrase the that very reason.
Something that is "interesting" can be factual and boring. Rarely is something that is "interesting" holding our attention because it is grand and awe-inspiring. Nope. if is were grand and awe-inspiring, our exclamations would be so much more than "hey, that was interesting!" Am I right?
Take my word for it. People know and understand that when something is "interesting" that you don't really mean it was outstanding and often their feelings are hurt. So just don't say it.
Why not try telling the truth the next time? Maybe you would say "I don't really know what to think about you."
Do you want to know something interesting about me.
Many of you do not fully understand my low self-esteem, but yet read about it often on this blog.
In fact,, when I comment about God and me when it relates to my low self-esteem, that is when I seem to get the most comments.
Why is that?
Maybe there are many people out there in the world just like me that can identify with me.
Maybe God has a purpose in my babbling here on the blog. Maybe God wants me to be transparent so that others can be helped by it. Maybe.
So, do you want to know a small tidbit about me. Maybe a small "coming out." Maybe a small glimpse that I have never shared before that makes me who I am?
........picture a young, impressionable little girl being admonished because she did not wipe the fingerprints from the backside of the refrigerator door handle.
That's enough for now.
That's enough sharing for a very long time.
That's enough to bring tears to my eyes.
Oh, and God does love me as much as He loves you
6 WARM FUZZIES--comments SO appreciated!:
Hummie, I've met you in person and I have to say you are interesting in a great way...because you are so open, caring, friendly, and willing to share your life with others. You are gifted as a teacher and I believe God has gifted you with that as well as the gift of compassion. You hold my interest in that I am not able to be active at the forum and even though I get about 400 emails a day, I always, always, always read what you have posted because I can identify with your low self-esteem. I was once grounded two weeks for not emptying an ashtray. Tomorrow is my birthday and I always think back to growing up and how far I've come from those days and yet, I still suffer from low self-esteem. So hang in there gal and thanks for sharing with us as we journey through life and relate to one another. I love you gal! I look forward to maybe seeing you in real life again because it is such a blessing to have met you! Sorry for writing so much but I wanted you to know just how special you are and yes you are interesting to me, as a person and not just as my teacher.
Interesting is always good. Always! It means something is out of the valley of sameness and up into the hills of being different or unusual or compelling or ANYTHING that is not mediocre. See, mediocre is the worst.
If I had a quarter for every time my mom yelled at me for some infraction, each time I was grounded, and each time she hit me with a hairbrush or yardstick to make sure I complied, I would never have to work again. But life goes on, she's a bitch, I am better than she is and I always will be. I don't know what makes people different.
Dear Hummie
Do you know what is really interesting? I sincerely believe it is the fact that there are so many of us feeling just like you, but most of us never make our feelings known. Why is that? I feel that no one would really be interested in me or what I have to say (this is low self-esteem talking now) and that my opinion of my own inadequacies holds me back and I tell me that I am not interesting and therefore no one else will think so too. This is so wrong of me to think this of myself at this stage of my life.
All my life I have been self-conscious of expressing myself for fear I will offend someone or that I would not make sense or that I would appear stupid.
We all have stories to tell of hurts of every magnitude imaginable from childhood on up to adulthood.
If you look at when I joined your group as a paid subscriber and never did a single thing until this year 2009, one would wonder what took me so long. I took me so long because I had to get up the nerve to finally stop bashing myself and join in.
I have tried to convey to you how you have helped me come up and come out of my shell. I am learning something new which I am so thrilled about and even though my layouts are not so perfect yet, at least I am participating and I do not feel so intimidated, and better yet, I do not fall apart at criticism on my layouts. This is all thanks to you.
Each person taking these courses is so valuable and inspiring and I am learning from them also.
Thank you Hummie for being a blessing to me and for sharing your God-given talents. May you be filled with more than just warm fuzzies, but with the peace of God that passes all understanding that what you are doing is the right thing and that we all care not only for you but for each other.
Wow, I couldn't add anything to those wonderful comments, Hummie! I think there are those of us that have self-esteem issues for all different reasons.
You are a great lady with lots of compassion and a wealth of knowledge that you so freely share.
I come back because of the variety of knowledge that you share and your warm personality that comes through in your posts.
Have a wonderful day!
Dear Hummie,
It's already been said, but I want to assure you that I come MORE to read your blogs than for the freebies! I have identified with you so closely, so many times, it's amazing to me! Thank you for your courage in expressing your feelings - it really helps those of us reading (who feel similarly), to know we are not alone!
Your freebies are fun to get, and I have learned SO MUCH from your training; but I have visited other sites, and never followed one like I follow yours; I've never felt such a part of any other site; and I've never felt the personal encouragement which I have received here - much of it from you individually as you comment on my layouts (this is VERY MUCH appreciated!), but in many ways from your blogging. You hit on things that are concerns in my life, so many times!!
I think one of the things I like best about your blogging is that (after expressing your feelings) you come back to your faith in our Lord, and how you can rest in that. You remind me of David, in the Psalms!
Keep blogging, when you have time - it is a very important part of what you do here. I would have thought that at 59 the low self-esteem issues in my life would be a thing of the past; but I find I still an encouraged as I hear someone else working through these things.
Anita
P.S. I'm doing laundry today, and I thought I'd mention that I recently ran across an old blog entry about your laundry system, and I SO MUCH identified with all that you said - and it made me feel so much better!!
I read this post last night and I thought about it. Then I thought about it some more and finally, after thinking about it again, decided to comment on it.
I simply can't find it in my heart to consider being "interesting" as anything less than a compliment. What is the alternative, to be boring? I'll take being interesting any day!
And regardless of what someone meant by "interesting", it still means they thought enough about what you are saying to stop and leave a comment about it. That means, good or bad, you made that impact. Like the saying goes "the only bad publicity is no publicity"
As for why I read your blog? The personal posts, all the way. I rarely scrap anymore (I'm so far behind and have no interest in getting caught up) and I have far too much stuff for scrapping anyway. I don't use templates so in all honesty, I generally don't even reading the scrap book related posts anymore. Does that make me a bad fan? Probably, but I've basically lost interest in the hobby, and hobby or not, I'm still a fan of you! :)
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